Like the wind, I cannot stop shaking
Where all my fears uncoil.
I am listless and wild,
Questionless, seeking answers
Seeds needing planting
Till the fields, again, again, again.
But I can no more make my life a steady flame
Than flames themselves, they dance so wildly, flinging light
I might burn out, or overflow the seams I sewed too tight
Around that voiceless cry, that I cannot help but hear tonight.
Howling across time,
Raw dreams thrown up to glaring sky.
Hear the keening at the crossroads,
Here is what they said to me:
Gone, oh gone to all the corners of the earth
Your people, and all our own
There were some who might have known who you were
But now, you don’t even know yourself
So you wander, wander on.
Never mind your empty stomach, so hungry for wholeness,
Never mind your parched lips, so thirsty for laughter,
Never mind your closed eyes, so weary of staring into the sun,
Never mind your restless hands, that ache to make, to mend what you’ll become.
Ah yes, no matter what or where, go on and on and on…
Ah yes, you recognize it in you, so strong determined one,
Never mind your feet that stray into what already has begun,
Too impatient to wait for the mind to catch on,
There’s been more to it than that, you know.
Come back to us, if you know who we are,
The urge, like tides, to pull you safe inside,
Safe, that is, from the gnawing of your own need
And find at last that you have come home,
That you are welcome and will no longer wander.
You have walked this way before,
To catch the fragments in your outstretched hands.
Please, no more cold,
Shivering as if eternity itself had touched you.
The quest for the question drives out everything else
The answer is a single song
Take the thread that was always yours to hold
Pull it through hand over hand,
The maze you walk no longer feeling so wrong.
Take hold of the directions, and join in
The beginning, the one you’ve always known,
Follow, then, to where you might belong.
To search for they whose words I heard–
That is where I’ve gone.
I am glad you are doing a lot of writing. How are things…hanging out at home today. Still not up to speed.
Much love to you, mom
Mary Beth Phillips, Ph.D.
3147 Lippizaner Lane
Walnut Creek, CA 94598
925-945-6450
mbphillips@comcast.net
Still very, very overwhelmed. Slept most of yesterday, I had some lowgrade bug with chills and a headache. Feeling better today though. Went for a lovely walk. 🙂