Surrendering all I have to hold
I am finally held fast, safe in your arms
Falling free from every familiar foundation
I am firmly rooted, your enduring love, solid ground
Without a mirror of my own
I am slowly recovering pieces of restored reflection
Finding myself radiantly shining
The light in me revealing vast seas of deep shadow
Solemnly, I sift through memory’s rubble, cities of shame
Struggling to recognize my strengths, strewn among ruins
My grief turns the soil for each seed of growing
I have watered them all with my tears
Tattered wrappings, every wound unwound
Each emerging, red and raw, soothed in silence
Undone, unraveled, unwoven
I have only the whispered hintings at wholeness
With tender care, I am turned transparent
Trusting and trembling in the dark of unknowing
Now the reverent hush of stillness
Rest in the soft light, gentle, mending
Now passing through the sunless shelter
Pursued by my panic, though always protected
Now crossing the burning sands
Rekindling resilience, forgotten flames of anger
Now stirring as storms and streams
Leaping through lightning, relearning languages of laughter
And together, we will fly on wings of sorrow and solace
Grey and green